Tuesday, May 25, 2010

Home is where some of my heart is


I've been feeling a bit off this past week. The littlest things are making me tear up. I cried at the end of LOST (which I probably would have anyway) and I cried really hard at the end of the Biggest Loser, like Terms of Endearment type crying. (I didn't see the marathon episode until Saturday afternoon, because it was pre-empted on Tuesday by the Yankee/Red Sox game). Last night when Mike got home he looked at me and asked what was up, and I told him nothing is up. Then half a glass of wine later, I'm blubbering on the phone to one of my BFF's about a whole bunch of things.

I guess I'm more upset about my Mom selling her house than I realized. We're going to Long Island this weekend for one last trip home before she closes. 32 years in that house, there is a lot to say goodbye to.

It's also saying goodbye not to just a house, but to that whole area, and the friends and family that are still there. Yes we can visit, but the visits will probably be fewer.

Those Stay At Home Mom vs. Working feelings have been popping up again, pretty strongly. I love being home with the kids. But it's getting to the point now that they're older that I need something for myself. I think I'm ready to go back to work. Which doesn't scare me, but kind of does.

I'm feeling better after the crying jag, and Mike worked from home today and surprised me by saying I could run outside while he watched Luke (4.3 miles, 39:25 pace. I'm going to keep boring you with stats). Then a little retail therapy was in order, so after Luke went to school, and I picked Eliza up from school, we hit the mall. Where I bought Nuun, Sportsbeans and Clif Shots at EMS and took E for a spin on the Carousel. Then in Barnes & Noble, I immediately spied a new release by one of my favorite Chick Lit authors, which is exactly what is in order for this Holiday weekend.

Now if you're still reading.....don't forget the Bondi Band giveaway.....it ends Wednesday at midnight.

24 comments:

ajh said...

Did you see Beauty and the Beast or The LIon King? I highly recommend both of these and Mary Poppins. The Lion King is my favorite ever! I would see it again.

I like that author too. Let me know how you like the book.

Hope your crying jag ends and that the shopping helped it. I am reading The Last Symbol.

Staci Dombroski said...

You are going through a lot right now and it is understandable! I would be doing the same thing!

Anne said...

Hug ((()))
Mike is a good man...and you seem to have dealt with all this emotion really well.

J said...

Wow 32 years! I would prolly be upset too! I was devastated when my aunt sold her cottage in the Adirondacks that I had been going to since I was born! Its hard to leave a place because of all the memories and people. Glad you had a good day today - I have been wanting to read that book! I heard it was good!

mudmama said...

Change always makes me melancholy too. Exercise and retail therapy do help! xo

Teamarcia said...

Glad the crying jag was therapeutic! Your shopping spree sounds good too!

Teamarcia said...

PS thanks so much for the donation--you are awesome!

Michele said...

Retail therapy is the best therapy.

I love Emily Giffin books. Is that out in paper back yet?! I've been waiting to read it!

Johann said...

I know what you mean with the house and the area to say goodbye to. My parents are still in our house and have been there for 44 years now. I know how tough it will be to leave it all behind.

D10 said...

I am heading back to RI cause my parents are selling their house as well. Weird to think another family will be there. So I can totaly relate.

Heather said...

I got all teary watching Lost too.

Tortuga_Runner said...

Let it out. Sometimes a good cry, a good book, some good shopping and a great run! is all you need to get back on track.

Ali said...

i am half-excited about this weekend... half-don't want it to come.

Elina said...

I've been on an emotional roller coaster this week too. I'll probably be a mess watching the Biggest Loser finale tonight (still haven't seen Lost - maybe Friday). At least you have a supportive husband. That always helps. :)

Julie said...

Hi Molly,
Oh, I am sorry that you have been having and emotional time with things:( It is okay to cry...really, I get the same way at times. I totally understand how you feel about your mom's house being sold. I felt the same when my grandparent's sold their farm:( It is hard to let go because it is a part of our history and memories.

Hang in there..sending you hugs and love:)

Angie Bishop said...

So glad you are feeling better. Sometimes a few good cries clears things up inside :)

Glad the run helped and that you had a nice time with Eliza :)

I will have to check out that book!

yonca said...

It's really tough to leave the house you grew up.
Whenever I feel sad, shopping always lighten me up a bit.Glad you're feeling better now.

Lindsay said...

Hang in there! Those are some hard thing! Remember the memories from the house, and find happiness in them :)

fancy nancy said...

I would be a disaster if my parents sold their house...like kicking and screaming...enjoy the weekend! Hang in there! PS I am so excited about that Emily Griffin book too...it'll be one of my summer reads!

kristen said...

So sorry girl. I wish we lived closer so we could "cry it out" together. Kind of like 'huggin it out' only much more cooler.

I can't pretend I understand what your going through, but I know your an AMAZING wife and mother and you will do what's best for your family whether that's working or staying at home.

You rock girl. Don't forget that - especially in your most tearful moments. Love you girl!!

p.s. Im totally going to check out this chick lit author....

Alyssa said...

How I wish I had something cheery, appropriate, and enlightened to say. Well, scratch "enlightened"; it's just not my style. In lieu of words of wisdom, then, I'll just tell you I cried last night as Simon's last American Idol ended. See, there's always someone in worse shape than you. Much worse.

But I do empathize; believe me.

Katie said...

Aww... I hope that you feel better soon Molly. I'm dying to read that Emily Giffin book btw! How is it?

Also, thanks so much for acknowledging those serving our country/those taken from us in your post yesterday.

Mari said...

I tear up when I watch biggest loser too! Have you read Matter of the Heart? I read it last week, it's good.

I'm also moving... so I understand the emotions.

Have a wonderful weekend! I will be running too :)

Melissa said...

She's one of my favorite writers! So glad to see she has a new book out - yay!!